Well, I just got my first Organic Chemistry test back, and since it’s lower than my mom’s age, I figured it would just be best to drop the course. Sadly, I actually studied for this test….like really hard. I don’t think I’ve ever put that much effort into actually doing well in a class, but in the end it just didn’t work out.
You know what the sad part was, though? I almost felt relieved when I got my grade back and knew that I had to drop the course. That class, along with my others, had made me so absolutely miserable and stressed out that not taking it, no matter what the long term graduation consequences would be, surprisingly made me happy.
I can now actually go back to enjoying my summer! I can start blogging again instead of just thinking up topics to write about and saying I’ll get to them later. I can start reading again, something I used to love doing, and until very recently had not had time to do for quite a while (I read The Cellar by Natasha Preston in two days, which I might end up doing a book review on just because). I can spend much more time with my boyfriend, and most importantly, I might actually stop having migraines every Thursday night (seriously, they come like clockwork recently).
Not to say that I didn’t have a good cry after I found out I had failed the test I worked so hard on. It’s really hard not to get upset when you’ve put so much time and energy into something just to have it crumble around you. In the long run, I think it might actually be a good thing, so we’ll just have to see what happens with graduation!
Hopefully you’ll be hearing from me a lot more,