Today I realized yet again why I haven’t gotten much of anything done over the past few months. When I got up this morning (after sleeping the right amount of time but staying in bed for an extra three hours….baby steps 😉 ), I brought up my Depression Plan to make sure that I started working toward the goals I set out in it yesterday, and to be quite honest, I didn’t feel like doing any of it. Even the thought of doing the first one (texting someone other than my boyfriend/parents) made me feel like crawling back into bed, much less getting outside in the sun and exercising.
Another problem I ran into was that I have other obligations, like studying for my anatomy test tomorrow, that makes finding time for everything difficult. That definitely made me want to give the whole thing up. However, the more I decided to make the plan a priority, the easier it became to fit everything in. I just had start thinking about the plan as another obligation not an option. One thing that helped with that was combining points. For example, I need to get 15 minutes of exercise per day, and I also need to get 15 minutes of sunlight each day. If I did my exercise outside, that would knock out two tasks. Also, splitting things up helped. An hour straight of doing something may seem like too much, but splitting it up into fifteen minute segments during study breaks helped me get it done.
For my exercise, I took my own advice and went for a walk outside while stopping to take some pictures on the way. I live on a road with a lake at the end of it, so it’s incredibly beautiful this time of year with the leaves changing. The only problem was that you have to walk through a path filled with trees, pine needles, and fallen leaves to get to the lake. Since it is an unusually warm day for November, I was afraid that I would meet a snake, so I ended up just walking up and down the street. I’m absolutely terrified of snakes, and I’ve already had to deal with one this year that decided to rest for a couple of hours in front of the back porch steps. That’s one too many for me…. After the walk, though, I felt so great. I felt like I had more energy, and I was just happier over all. It’s crazy how just a little bit of fresh air and exercise will do you a world of good. It just takes you forcing yourself to get out and do it.
As far as spending an hour doing something I used to enjoy, I wrote this entry and spent some time fixing some things that had been neglected on my blog. I also texted a girl from my church who has been trying to reach out to me ever since I got home from college this semester. She’s been having a really hard time the last few days, so I texted her to tell her that I was thinking about her.
Overall, it was definitely hard to get started, but when I finally made myself get outside and go for a walk, it made me feel so good that I wanted to do everything else on the plan to keep the high going. I feel like it’s still going to be a long road ahead, and I’m still going to have to try and get up the motivation each day to continue moving forward. I’m so encouraged by the way I’m feeling right now, though, that I want to fight again.