These last few months have been incredibly hard on me, and although I felt like writing would help, I just couldn’t bring myself to do much of anything, much less write about it. It literally has just been one thing after another. My great grandmother got into a really bad car accident and had to stay in the hospital for a couple of weeks. Then she got moved into a nursing home for rehab on her leg which has been hard on the entire family. Then, I started having really bad stomach problems which led to a trip to the ER and eventually the gastroenterologist. They ran a bunch of tests and are still trying to figure out what’s wrong. (My mom thinks part of it is all the stress I’ve been under.)
To top it all off, though, after coming back to my college apartment after staying home due to health problems, I was told some incredibly hurtful news by one of my roommates. First, I should explain that I live with three other girls. The first one, I’ve been friends with since I was three (we’ll call her Caroline). The second, is my ex-best friend (we’ll call her Allison), and the third just moved into the apartment this semester (she’ll be Kennedy).
Anyway, when I got back to the apartment, Caroline asked me to go to coffee with her, so I did the next day. At that point I knew something was up because she always gives me bad news over coffee (I happen to love coffee). When we finally sat down and got through the small talk, she told me that Allison had been telling her and Kennedy some incredibly bad things about me. The lies were so bad, that she couldn’t even bring herself to tell me exactly what she had said. She only told me generally what it was about.
Now, this really shouldn’t have come as such a shock to me because I’d seen Allison do this to other ex best friends before (seriously, the girl goes through best friends like bags of chips), but I thought that I would be different. She always seemed to care about me and want to help me in any way she could. She makes you feel good about yourself, and then when you have no one else but her….she drops you. She’s very good at it. I should have seen it coming, but I didn’t.
At the beginning of the semester, Kennedy and Allison got to be really good friends (like in the first week they were doing everything together). Ever since then, Kennedy has been avoiding me, and I never knew why until now. Unfortunately, not only did Allison tell these lies to Kennedy and Caroline, she also told them to their parents. The night Caroline told me what had been going on, her mom called my mom and told her that she wouldn’t stand for me doing the things she was told I was doing in the same apartment as her daughter. The crazy part is, Caroline’s family and my family are really close. They chose to believe the lies about me Allison had told them instead of defending me. All of them did.
After my mom set her straight, they tried to apologize, but the damage had been done. Kennedy still thinks Allison is right and won’t listen to anything else. My parents and I decided it would be best to move to a different apartment, but I won’t be able to move until January, so I’m back at home now. I’m still incredibly hurt that people who used to be your friends could turn their backs on you so easily. They were the ones I did everything with, so now I don’t have anyone.
Honestly, I thought that I would be sad moving out of the apartment where I had been living for the last two years. I had come to view it as home. When I went to move out, though, despite my intense fear of change, I just felt this incredible amount of relief. I’m ready to start this new chapter of my life, and I’m excited to see where it takes me.